This one is for you, Noelle
My placement work was slow to start, and with all my extra time I looked to take notice in all the little things I had not expected to happen. I was using my time to question why I was on this journey, and how God could call me to such a place. I was negative, I was desperate, and I was lonely.
Before leaving for London, a family friend left me with a gift I managed to pack in with my luggage. A book she cherished, hoping the words that touched her could find a way to guide me as well. It was a simple gesture of kindness, and she couldn’t have known that a month later this book would be my saving grace in bringing light to my journey and filling me with the Holy Spirit. One chapter in, I was hungry for more words, more God, and more challenges.
Thanks to this book, I have started a list. It’s simple really. It’s a list of gifts I witness every day. Gifts as small as dew on a vibrant pink flower petal, or the smile of the crossing guard stopping traffic on my way to school. I'm also learning to see the "ugly beautiful"; when I might not understand why I am faced with a specific challenge, but can focus on the gift it holds. We have a God of specifics, and as he is giving us 1000 gifts every moment. It’s our privilege to be able to stop and notice them. As we notice these gifts, we are noticing all the ways God loves us. We are giving thanks to his glory and letting the Holy Spirit fill us with joy.
Two months in… and as my list continues to grow longer, the rain seems to be letting up. Sure, I’m still soaked when I step outside, but instead of focusing on the rain, I see, taste, hear, and enjoy all of the million sunbeams shining through.
So for now…
252. Sharpened lead to paper
253. The smell of fresh pencil shavings
254. Legs carrying me on a walk to school
255. Wind carrying the sound of shrieking laughter
256. Missing my train to stop and share an apple